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Toni
Toni Stuart
Toni Stuart is a poetry writer, performer and developer, based in Cape Town, South Africa.
Sunday, 16 September 2012
Saturday, 19 March 2011
the dance
it is a battle for ground
between you and I
a dance in 2/4 time
on a chequered board:
on a chequered board:
heel toe,
arm hand,
hand shoulder
toe toe
pirouette out
i dared
to speak the
truth
: not bury it in
tango with
you, our hips square
never touching, your
hand on small of my
back, a r c h e d
my head turned away from
you
so close…
it is a battle for ground
between you and I
a dance in ¾ time
a waltz with shoulders square
frame never broken
eyes askance always
we dare not
look
i dared
to meet your
stare
as we spun
across
a sprung
wood
floor
:a lingering look
questioned the pain
you couldn’t
touch
till shivering hands
let go of your
body, for fear they would love
your pain too
much
it is a battle for ground
between you and i
a dance in 4/4 time
breath
brushes bare
shoulder, your palm in small of back
you guide a
spin
and with eyes
closed, i find my way
back
still, i dared
to pull our unspoken
words into
words into
the burning
light of a myriad mirror ball
light of a myriad mirror ball
r e f l e c t i o n s
falling
on
your
face,
hands and
neck. and everywhere
your
feet rose and
fell, they were
met by the fear you
could not name
in
daylight
it is only
a battle for ground
between
you
and
i
but one of us
always dies
©Toni Stuart, Cape Town 2009 -2011
Monday, 18 October 2010
Upcoming performances
I have two performances lined up in the next two weeks and would love to see as many of you there as possible:
xx Toni
- Wednesday October 27 - Urban Voices International Poetry Festival, at the Baxter Theatre Centre in Rondebosch. Tickets are R150, book through computicket. Visit http://www.urbanvoices.co.za/ for more information.
- Monday November 1 - Off the Wall Poetry at a Touch of Madness in Nuttal Road, Observatory. The evening starts at 8pm, and there will be an open mic session after the break. Entry is free.
xx Toni
Thursday, 14 October 2010
Whose voice?
Whose voice moves through you? Whose voice sings from your belly, resonates in your throat, and whose voice sings you to sleep at night? Is it your own? Could you recognise your own voice, if it happened upon you as a whisper in your ear? Have you listened? Can you listen? Do you know what it sounds like?
Whose voice lulls you into lies in the daylight bright and glaring, who’s voice calls you away from the truth of dreaming and buries your heart in the fear of believing, the fear of deceiving, the fear of revealing who you really are? Is this your song that plays out in the light of your days or do you save it for the molasses of night, that navy blanket peppered with holes of celestial light that covers you as your tears and sobbing rock you to sleep? Tears the world will never hear as you stifle them, stifle them from the ears that would listen and in their listening coax you out, call your heart to stand in day and lick the light.
Whose song? Tell me who’s song, I want to know, I want to know so I may shatter it against the wall of your insecurity and with one swoop send your blinding wall crumbling to the ground and shatter all that you fake yourself to be, all that you lie to yourself you are, all that you pretend to be so others will not feel small around you. And then as you lie broken and drowning in the ashes of your lies, I will watch, I will witness as that single tear falls, falls, falls, falls, from your heart, and watch it draw a circle in your bed of ashes, to carve light into your molasses night, so your dreams can come pouring in, so you can remember.
And you will sob, you will sob, your body wracked with the pain of exhaling your lies, your masks, your paralysing fear, your indecision, your self-doubt. And then, in your weakest moment, when your body is spent and your bones ache with the brittleness of all that letting go, and you cannot raise your head or a lift a finger, you will breathe again for the first time…
©Toni Stuart – Cape Town, June 17
Wednesday, 13 October 2010
the lovers - den anker
us writers are people watchers, we see things in the seemingly ordinary moments...
the lovers – den anker
have you seen time stop?
two lovers slowed the clocks in their world
with one touch one look
they sit, heads turned to the still moving water
through the restaurant’s glass
wall, watch the setting sun
turn a sky lonely in shades of pink.
she tucks his mousy brown hair
behind his ears
then one stroke two strokes
with the back of her fingers
against his left cheek.
in that single gesture,
he knows
his head is turned to the mountain; eyes lost as
he smiles
and in that slow instant
as his cheeks
rise to meet his eyes,
she knows too
©Toni Stuart, December 2008
Friday, 8 October 2010
i slept
this is another old poem which i wrote about five years ago and recently found in and among a stack of others. i'm working on a manuscript at the moment and so keep coming across old poems, some of which i will include in the manuscript. this one's a personal favourite
i slept
last night i slept
wrapped in blanket of your voice
lulled to sleep
by smell of your music
harmed
by thoughts of you
i dreamt last night
dreamt
in vivid colours of you
sombre colours of me
and in the breath between the two
we kissed
Toni Stuart, Cape Town, 2004
Wednesday, 6 October 2010
we build walls
this is an old poem which i wrote years ago but found again recently and thought i'd post it...
we build walls
we build walls
there are things i will not say like,
‘i still love you’
we build walls
with pens on paper
with tongues in mouths
with hearts
slow and silent to move behind cages
we build walls
to keep people out
i build a wall
to keep you in.
i wish time would erase you from me
like the Cape Doctor
dispels smog from our skies
but you linger…
the distant memory of you
still warms all of me.
i think i have forgotten
how your tongue makes
sound against teeth to
form words
how your eyes grow when you laugh
i think i have forgotten how fast you eat
how you cut meat and veg into pieces
and heap them onto your fork
how you chew wildly
i think i have forgotten how you sound
i think i have forgotten how warm your hands are
but i have not forgotten
why i love(d) you
and this keeps my heart still
it does not walk
it sits
lies
sleeps here
in a bed of you memories
we build walls
when we pull ears from hearts
when we pull eyes from souls
we build walls
to keep people out
to cripple ourselves in
but it is comforting
…it is what we know
Toni Stuart - 2007
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